by Christina Rose
“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4 NIV
After 22 years in the family home, it was time to sell, and I dreaded it. The house may have been quiet and empty after my two daughters left for college, but it was still full of joyful memories: new babies, holidays, birthdays, love, and laughter. I had never wanted those days to end. Now my husband was living nearby with someone new, and I felt more lost and alone than ever. I was on the verge of sliding into a serious pity party and there was only one thing to do.
I put on my hiking boots and headed out with the dogs to call on my Father.
My home was at the base of Ring Mountain, a beautiful nature preserve that overlooks San Francisco bay. Each day I hiked and prayed and found my peace. Today I needed it more than ever. I looked to the sky in prayer and heard, “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand” (Isaiah 41:10 NIV).
Peace began filling my spirit and answers flowed. I was guided to call an old friend who had a beautiful historic home with a few rental cottages in the nearby town of Larkspur. This 100 year old home sat on a hill in the middle of a redwood forest with spectacular mountain views and was a short drive to the beach. While I had not spoken to my friend in years, God’s message to call him was insistent. So I did.
I discovered he was now living a few hours away. He offered me the main house for a reasonable rent. But he was in bankruptcy, which meant if he lost the house, I might have to move back out with a few days’ notice. It was a huge financial and emotional risk. Again, I prayed on my mountain and the guidance to make this move was clear. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5 NIV).
I lived in paradise for three years. My belongings fit perfectly, which made me feel at home immediately. My daughters and their friends loved to visit. The stained glass windows, high beamed ceilings, decks, views of the mountain, lush garden in the redwoods with visiting deer, hummingbirds, and butterflies were heavenly. Each sunrise and sunset I prayed on the top deck. In the evenings the fog from the ocean would roll over the mountain refreshing the air.
A cottage became vacant, and my sister and her kids spent the summer with us. A niece came by with friends on their way to a Bible retreat. One morning, as I was watching the group praying in the garden, I thought, God’s plan is so much bigger than our own if we would just ask for his help and trust him. “Now unto him that is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us” (Ephesians 3:20 KJV).
The three years I spent in Larkspur were so blessed, and I am beyond grateful. My leap of faith was rewarded in ways that were far greater than I could have ever imagined. But I learned the true desire of my heart was not Larkspur. My true heart’s desire was to have comfort in knowing how much our Father loves us and how much he wants his best for us. If we will just turn to him and trust him he will astound us with his mercy and grace. “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you” (Matthew 6:33 KJV).
About the author: Christina Rose is an author, trainer and speaker certified by the John Maxwell Team of Leadership. She is a DAR (Daughter of the American Revolution) whose ancestors fought in the Revolutionary War. A devoted mom of two daughters and great aunt to over 40 nieces and nephews, Christina loves spending time in nature and hosting gatherings for family and friends.
Christina’s book, My Appeal to Heaven, is her story. Her marriage in shambles, Christina finds herself in a desperate situation with no resources other than herself. After appealing to heaven, the Lord takes her on a journey of awakening and miraculous empowerment. That power that is available to us all, especially those who are in need of hope and freedom.
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