Troubled Heart?

by Terri Gillespie

Do not let your heart be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in Me. John 14:1 TLV

Keep your heart from being troubled? No small task, is it? Because sometimes life smacks you in the face, and there it is, your reality, and the reality is heartbreaking.

My husband and I walked into our daughter’s room and found the note—and her Chihuahua, Paco. The note simply said: I can’t stay. No mention where she would be or how to contact her. Nothing about whether or not she would be back for little Paco, who was so devastated, he went on a hunger strike.

This was our only child. The daughter we had prayed for since before she was born. How could this be? Our expectations were not for her to disappear with no clue as to where she was. For months there was no word from her. Based on her dangerous lifestyle, we didn’t know if she was even alive.

In the verse above, Yeshua (Jesus) is preparing His followers for His death and eventual departure from this world. Based on the comments and questions from the disciples, they were troubled to hear those words.

It appears they had certain expectations of Yeshua, and leaving wasn’t part of those expectations. Their expectations of Jesus were more that He would conquer their oppressors! Or that He would give them favor by showing them His Dad. How did Jesus not pull out His hair in frustration?

One of my wise friends gave me the advice, “Hold things lightly.” Perhaps, I will add to that wise counsel: “Hold expectations lightly.”

We may confuse faith with expectations, thinking that if we have enough faith, God will come through and do what we expect. I am not seeing that notion proved in Scripture. While it is scriptural that without faith it is impossible to please God (Hebrews 11:6), faith is not about our expectations. It’s not about us at all. Our faith centers in God and His plans.

And He pulled back about a stone’s throw from them, got on His knees, and began to pray, saying, “Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done” (Luke 22:41-42 TLV, emphasis mine). Whatever we pray for, whatever we hope for, it should be with the understanding: in the end we ultimately want God’s will, not our will, to be done. Just like His Son prayed. Just like He taught us to pray (Matthew 6:10).

Eventually, our daughter telephoned us to let us know she was alive and well. Then, finally, she returned home.

Today, she has a son of her own. And from time to time, as she deals with her own teenager, she marvels at our love for her when she was in her most unlovable state. Hearing that from my daughter, well, that’s more than I ever expected.

Do we tend to pray with inflexible expectations? Try to tell God what to do? Always remember: God has a plan and His will, it will be done. And how could we ever be troubled when God’s will is done?

This article is brought to you by the Advanced Writers and Speakers Association (AWSA).

About the author: Award-winning author and speaker, Terri Gillespie writes stories of faith and redemption to nurture souls. Her novels, devotionals, messages, and blogs have drawn readers to hunger for a deeper relationship with their Heavenly Father, and His Son Jesus. Her newest novel, Sweet Rivalry, releases later this year.

The third and final book in the Hair Mavens series, Really Bad Hair Day, is a whirlwind of changes for the mavens—including marriage, love, danger, loss, and redemption. The Hair Mavens is a modern-day Ruth and Naomi series set in a modern day hair salon.

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The Fear Not Factor

by Nan Allen

…Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9 NIV

It was called Infantile Paralysis and though I don’t remember it, since I was only two years old, my sister and I actually had this virus—the virus we now know as polio. A few months after we had the virus, the vaccine became available and was distributed, subsequently eradicating the disease.

Even though my sister and I didn’t have any long-term effects, I’m aware that this virus not only killed but maimed millions of people, before it was finally eliminated by stopping the spread. I understand, too, that for many years before and after our illness, there was fear and panic and despair much like now with the present pandemic. Like COVID-19, this virus had a mind of its own. It could kill or not. It could make someone very ill or not. No one knew how a body would respond. But the epidemic hit our little southern town just as the vaccine was coming out.

I remember, later on, seeing pictures of people, children and adults, having to spend the rest of their lives in leg braces or a contraption called an “iron lung”—a casket-like device that moved paralyzed muscles that were required for breathing. Without it, the victim would suffocate. It was a horrible disease, and though I don’t remember much about my family’s bout with it, I know that the fear of it was very real.  (And the idea that it only affected children, infantile paralysis was no longer regarded as true. After all, President Franklin Roosevelt had it as an adult.)

We are born with a certain amount of fear. It is natural. Doctors say that humans have two inborn fears: the fear of falling and the fear of loud sounds. In so many cases, fear is good. It helps us respond to danger. However, the kind of fear that we develop as we get older is born out of a feeling that we are out of control of the future. And we are. But that’s where this emotion becomes a problem. We are afraid of what we cannot see, touch, or hear. We don’t know what will happen, so we often don’t venture into that great unknown.

As believers, we add guilt to our fear. Fear is the absence of faith, right? And without faith, we cannot please God. Jesus spoke about fear to His disciples in the Upper Room. “Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me” (John 14:1 ISV). However, right after this Jesus had a sense of fear Himself. “My Father, if it is possible, take this cup of suffering from me!” (Matthew 26:39, GNT). He knew what was ahead, and yet He still dreaded the pain of betrayal, of the whip, and of the nails that would be driven into His hands. He did not fear death, however. He knew that He would overcome that and, in doing so, overcome it for us, too.

Mr. Roosevelt said this in his first presidential inaugural address, “So, first of all, let me assert my firm belief that the only thing we have to fear is…fear itself — nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes…”

Fear can be paralyzing much like the poliomyelitis virus. It can keep us from walking, venturing out, and even breathing. The only way to banish this plague is to do what Jesus said in the garden just before His arrest and torture.  “Yet not as I will, but as You will.” An old adage says, “I don’t know what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future.”

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God… Isaiah 41:10 NIV

This article is brought to you by the Advanced Writers and Speakers Association (AWSA).

Nan Corbitt Allen

About the author: Nan Corbitt Allen has written over 100 published dramatic musicals, sketchbooks, and collections in collaboration with Dennis Allen, her husband of 45+ years. A three-time Dove Award winner, Nan’s lyrics and dramas have been performed around the world. Dennis and Nan have sold almost 3 million choral books.

Nan and Dennis retired in 2020 from full time teaching at Truett McConnell University. They now live south of Nashville. They have two grown sons and two beautiful grandchildren.

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Nan’s book, Small Potatoes @ the Piggly Wiggly, is a collection of devotionals that reveal the great impact seemingly insignificant, routine experiences can have in our lives. She describes what she learned of God’s providence and wisdom while growing up in the Deep South in the 1950’s and 60’s.

Join the conversation: What do you fear?